I love God and I greatly admire Jesus, but I'm a mortal man and have no possible ability to do what He did on the cross. So why should I have to suffer or die?
These are all lies that Satan wants me to believe to turn me back into rebellion against God through the temptation and appeal of counterfeit gods. He wants me to think that I'm not deserving of death, that God is being unfair, and that what I really need is just a good vacation in the Bahamas for a week.
The truth, however, is that I am deserving of death. That I desperately need God. And that what I really need is to die so that Christ can be alive in me. All of those voices in my head are simply trying to drown out the voice of Truth which says that the only way to real life is through death.
And so the pattern of "real life" begins here. I start the journey to my grave a wretched man. Yet through the death and life of Christ, I am resurrected into His glory, receiving the new life He gives - life to the fullest (John 10:10). The death I die daily through my suffering allows God to show His strength in my weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9-10).
Whatever trials or challenges you may be enduring, I pray that by God's generous grace you will discover this mystery as I have and experience the joy of Christ in your life.