First off, the most important thing I want to make clear about this post is that it's not about me. In fact, it's the opposite: it's about God - more of Him.
I've been thinking about this for the past month or so, and especially interested after a particular section in Mere Christianity where C.S. Lewis describes what pride is (the greatest evil), why it's so terrible (you cannot be proud and know God) and how to deal with it (humility). I also love to reflect on Easter and Christmas, specifically, more than other holidays because of their significance to Christianity. So I thought this was a perfect time with December 25th coming up.
I don't like to think of myself as arrogant, and I truly don't think I am, but I have plenty of pride. And I hate it. It's the Debbie Downer that destroys forgiveness, an opportunity for service, and a possibility to know God deeper.
As a counselor, naturally, I want to address this problem. That's where I came up with this treatment plan of "60 Days of Humility." The goal is simple: less of me and more of Him. But it has some potential problems that I need to keep in mind during this journey:
- As I humble myself and surrender my pride, I need to be careful not to gloat in this. Doing so will glorify me and negate my intentions.
- Laying down my pride must be immediately followed with thanks and glory to God for His work in and through me.
- Each day and week I want to be looking out for ways in which pride manifests itself in my life (wanting to be recognized, selfishness, vanity, lack of prayer, etc.), identify and name them, and give them to God.
- Since wanting to do things my own way is a form of pride, I need to be particularly focused in prayer and asking for God's Spirit to search me, then lead me to the way everlasting. (Psalm 139:23-24). This must be God's work, not mine.
- I also need to be particularly focused in God's Word. If I am going to lay down my voice at His throne, I need to allow Him to speak into me. This will also help me meditate on Him throughout the day (Psalm 1:1-3, 48:8-10, 77:11-13, 119:14-16, 119:26-28, 119:47-49).
- Each week I want to reflect on the past several days to see if I'm staying the course. If not, I'll need to readjust. My hope is that by the end of 60 days, I will be ready in heart, soul, strength, and mind to fully receive Jesus Christ, my Savior, as I celebrate and remember His birth.
- The 60 Days will go from October 24th-December 24th, and culminate on Christmas Eve. Just as I work to keep an eternal perspective in life, these 60 days will be keeping me focused on Christmas and my Savior.